Snow weekend

It's been a great 4 days. We've spent most of the extended weekend in the comfort of our home and it's been awwwwsome. I swear all I've done is eat but it's been worth it. Tomorrow is my hubby's bday so tonight I'm cooking a fat dinner and some funnel cakes for dessert. Hell yeah, funnel cakes. They're the shit!

I've spent much of the weekend cleaning and trying to think of ways to shit out some money so I can buy people Christmas gifts this year. Hate to be such a downer about it, because I LOVE giving people gifts. But money is always tight around here and it becomes something I really stress out on. It shouldn't be that way. This year when my mom asked me what I wanted for Christmas, I started thinking, and I said "EVERYTHING!!". Seriously, I have not bought myself anything that I really didn't need since the baby's been born. Oh how I wish I had new boots and sexy new jeans and new bras and a cool sweater, a new coat, new belts, sassy shirts and comfy ones too. I remember a time not so long ago when I could buy myselft anything I wanted whenever I wanted it. I've never been materialistic but what woman doesn't like new wardrobe stuff?....... And then there's the practical me that just names the stuff I really need....new tires, tennis shoes for work---all the boring stuff that I really need but dont' have money for. Blahhh.

I let the baby stay the night at my mom's last night so we could sleep in today. It's always nice but I can't ever sleep past 9:00 anyway. It's crazy what I've turned into. A Mommy machine. But I love it.

my boy

pumpkin patch, originally uploaded by Mellymel.

Still with ya..gobble gobble

Ahhhh, Thanksgiving. The one holiday I feel sorry for my husband because he's a VEGETARIAN! I think turkey is probably my favorite meat and Thanksgiving is definitely my favorite meal ever. I can remember being a little girl and eating so fast and then seriously contemplating puking so I could eat more. Last year I was pregnant and could eat whatever and whenever I wanted without guilt. Well this year I will do the same (I am not pregnant by the way). I'm just really excited. I have been good so far and I've not bought any eggnog. I went crazy last year because I could, but I think that shit is the most fattening thing ever.

Life's good, not a whole lot to speak of. Work everyday, spend the evenings with my fam, occasionally miss being irresponsible. But things change and you move on. I worked my ass off today and tonight my reward is sipping on some hot sake and doing nothing. Sidney is the most amazing little thing ever...he's just about to walk. I can't believe he's 9 months old now. I'll have to post some pics. He's crazy beautiful.

Hope everyone has a great holiday! I'll be with family eating and eating and eating some more.

no politics or religion please

I've been having a hard time lately dealing with certain family members and their religious views. It's actually been going on for awhile but I'm usually able to remove myself from the conversation or leave the room. Lately it's gotten pretty "in-my-face" and it's almost as if they are trying to get me to say what they want to hear but never do. I was raised being forced to go to church every Sunday, attend Sunday school which always made me extremely uncomfortable, I can even remember going to Vacation Bible School. I just never shared the same views as the rest of my family and they pretty much left me alone...with the exception of an occasional invitation to church which I usually declined. Don't get me wrong, I have no problem with a person's faith and personal beliefs. That's your right, just don't make me feel guilty because I don't have the same beliefs.

Well, this evening's topic during dinner was politics. It started innocently with the question of whether I was registered to vote. I said yes, and then was informed I should most definitely be voting Republican and I snickered and said let's change the conversation. I pretty much said I don't share their conservative political opinions and we should probably drop the conversation. Then my little cousin said "Remember Mom, Pastor Terry said just because you vote Democrat doesn't necessarily mean you go to hell." What the????? So you have to be a Republican to go to church? The whole thing makes me nauseaus and I'm glad it's over. I'd like to add my mother has nothing to do with this. Atleast someone in my family respects the fact that I'm an adult with my own brain and opinions.

back to normal-whatever that is

Oh my God, I have internet again--and my computer back. It's soooo nice. And this obviously means we have moved out of Mom's finally. We are living in an awesome house just 15 minutes out of St. Chuck...so it's definitely nice being close to everything again. We've been here a couple of weeks and are finally getting settled in. I spend most of my days off trying to unpack more and chasing my 8 month old around the house. I was never ready for him to crawl--he is HIGH maintenance right now. (but still a good baby) He just wants to get into to EVERYTHING.

Socially I've been pretty bored. Just to think that two short years ago I spent my weekends drinking with friends, finding the next party, sleeping off hangovers, thinking about what to dress up as for Halloween. Now I'm dressing my own baby up and I'm lucky if I hear about a party. Most of our friends are still single with no children and I guess they just assume that because we are married and have a baby our life has ended. Or maybe nobody hangs out anymore, but I doubt that. When we do hang out with certain people we realize just how much we've changed and they haven't. Still clubbing til 3 am on a Tuesday at 30? Nah, not for me. I am going out tonight with a friend to see a show downtown, and I fear it may be a madhouse with the Cardinals playing and hopefully wrapping up the series tonight. We'll see. It's just nice to have a night out.

My kid's eating cat food so I better go.

sucky-ass saturday

I woke up yesterday violently ill and spent the whole day on the couch/in bed. I puked for 12 hours and just generally felt like crap. I'm still not 100% today but anything is better than yesterday. What a shitty way to spend the weekend. Why can't I get sick during the week and atleast get paid for it? I'm gonna try and pull myself together and get some stuff done today. Next weekend we might be moving so I have a lot to do. We finally found a nice house that we can afford and we are almost positive we get to move next weekend. It is beautiful~~brand new brick home with 3bed/2 bath and 2 car garage....and a HUGE kitchen for momma...I can't wait. It was so depressing after the wedding because we got so many nice gifts and I just had to pack them away. The house is in Wentzville so we will finally be closer to civilization and they even offer high speed internet there. I've said it a million times but I have missed my computer time soooo much.

The little man has been growing so fast, it's starting to freak me out a bit. In the last 2 weeks he cut his 2 bottom teeth and started crawling and sitting up by himself. Yesterday he pulled himself up on the couch. I couldn't believe it! He's getting so big and oh so beautiful. I've always thought he was gorgeous but lately I stare at him and I just can't believe how flawless he his. I could stare at him forever. I guess that's what all mommy's do with their children though.

my incredibly predictable life

I've started to realize just how very boring I have become. I start everyday dragging myself out of bed after hitting snooze for an hour. I slam coffee while getting ready as fast as I can usually while feeding the baby and getting him ready for the babysitter. I drive to work thinking how much I wish I didn't have to go and I know exactly where to slow down because a cop sits in the same place everyday. I clock in right at the very last minute and usually get sent to work somewhere I'm not expecting. Luckily my work day usually goes by pretty fast because I work in a busy clinic~~ I rarely even get a lunch break. Then I drive home in silence trying to forget the craziness that was my day and start my time with my family. When I get home it's the same thing everynight. I am a creature of habit and I like my routines. To sum it up, I feed the baby, make dinner, get his diaper bag ready and get coffee ready for the next day so all I have to do is press start, play 3 games of ping pong with my husband, bathe baby/put to bed, watch the block of sitcoms on channel 11 starting with Friends, and fall asleep. And then I do it all over again. Sometimes I try to get on the computer but can't stand how slow it is and just get pissed and quit. My life is boring but I like it. I wouldn't have it any other way. I lived fast for 12 years so I think I got it out of my system. Don't get me wrong--when I do get out I make the most of it and I always have a blast. It's just funny to sit back and look at myself now....all the changes...all the growing up.

daycare

We have spent the past couple of weeks interviewing private daycare providers. The first one was really bad...it was a retired wife/husband team who sounded nice on paper. They were very close to my work and that was another bonus. Once we got there, it quickly went downhill. The man greeted us at the door and when he asked BJ's name he shook his hand and said "blow job?" BJ's like yeah, I've never heard that before so we go in to meet his wife. First off you couldn't help but notice her head was bandaged, and she informed us she just had a facelift. Interesting. In between her husband showing me magic tricks and creepily staring at my ass, she informed us she does not use gates on her steps, she just teaches the babies to crawl up and down the steps. The interview should have been over there, but we are too nice. Like an hour later and the lady literally following us to our car we finally got out of there. It was a freak show man. We left feeling very discouraged and uncomfortable.

We interviewed two people last night that turned it all around so I think we are finally set. I HATE that I have to leave my child with anyone but the lady we chose is 100% awesome. Beautiful house, out in the country, clean, safe, non-creepy husband. I know someone who takes their kid there so that helps. One more stress is relieved!

I've been in quite a funk lately, seems it has been contagious. Not only have I been battling a cold for 2 weeks but I started back on birth control pills about 3 weeks ago. Let's just say my body doesn't like them (mentally). It causes me to be majorly depressed. When I tried to go on the minipill after the baby I had to stop because of depression. Now 3 weeks into trying again I just threw them away. I couldn't stand feeling like I did. It was getting so bad I could barely get off the couch, couldn't smile, just generally hated everything. I knew the pills were causing it and sure enough, 4 days after stopping them I am already feeling better. It sucks because I never had a problem with them in the past. Hmmmmm.